My love affair with the sun……

My love affair with the sun…….

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Forgiveness 

People makes mistakes, mess up, make the wrong choices sometimes. But this does not and should not define a person.  I am not saying that every mistake is forgivable, but we are human and nobody is perfect.

I myself have made some mistakes which is normal. It’s life! But when the shoe is on the other foot it’s not so easy to deal with

I always felt like I took responsibility with my actions in life but now I am not so sure

A breakup can really change your way of thinking  and make you question yourself. I have come to realize some pretty interesting things about myself. Such as I thought I was a really nice, giving person. Well apparently I need some work in those areas and also looking at a person and not being so judgmental. I don’t think I judge everyone but even one person is too many. After a breakup you really need YOU time.  Time to look back and reflect on what went wrong and also what went right.  I am not going to obsess over this relationship but I already know things I will never accept again in the future and also recognize what my worth is. And it is not worth my time to spend with someone who truly doesn’t appreciate my presence. 

I know I wasn’t innocent but I am not a bad person. Even if he doesn’t forgive me for my mistake well I will forgive him for his neglect and move on to bigger and better things. I will not hold resentment in my heart. I want to be happy and not worry about negative things as much. One day someone will walk i to my life that I wasn’t even expecting. 

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Loyalty- where has it gone?

Where are the days of loyalty? Have they¬†disappeared? I feel they have. You put a lot¬†of time and energy into someone and then POOF! There they go. It is¬†not easy to just forget all about them. After all you thought you had a good thing going. Then comes the sneaking and lying. Like my mother says, it always catches up to you and you never know who is watching. The part of the betrayal that gets me the most is when the other party thinks your not smart enough to catch on. So you do your thing, live your life and just¬†don’t¬†make yourself so available. You really owe this person no explanation. After all¬†they did not show enough care when they were betraying you right?¬†

It is not so easy to learn to trust someone  again after you lose their loyalty. After all you opened your heart to them and they could care less. I am the type of person who does try to maintain a friendship/relationship to the best of my ability. But after feeling like you are a 3rd wheel it is simply time to move on and walk away. No more. No waiting. No trying harder. Just done. And maybe one day they will learn not to do that to someone else. Because it is not a fun feeling in any way, shape or form.

Is true love out there? 

 

When I think about that huge L word, things like hearts and happiness come to mind.  Love is something that cannot be measured or caged. It is something that comes from within.  When we are born we love unconditionally. Yet as we grow and learn to love others, it seems so easy for that wonderful feeling to just go away. It could be from being hurt in a relationship or friendship. It could be a  betrayal from someone very close to you or even from an aquaintance.  When you give your heart to someone you do so with the thought that they will know and understand and give that love back to you. It doesn’t always work out that way though.  Once your heart is broken you tell yourself never again! But then after some time subsides you open your heart for the possibility of love once more. After being hurt too many times it is so hard to believe in that feeling. Like are you only given one chance at true love?  Then you overthink things and try to reply past relationships. Meaning, should I have not given up?  Should I have tried harder?  But what if the other person didn’t really show you they felt that way but still wanted to hang onto you?  For what reason?

If you truly know you do not love someone then move on. Love isn’t something that happens overnight for either side. But you can usually tell that you are smitten with someone after even a few months.  I’m still hopeful that there is real love out there.  And I am sure it will happen when least expected.  

Compassion and the lack of it in this world we live in.

On a somewhat almost daily basis I look for compassion in my fellow citizens of this planet we call our home. And it is sad to say i see less and less of it. I was raised to always lend a hand or a smile and also to put yourself in someone else’s shoes.And most importantly try not to judge or ridicule. But each and every day I see the exact opposite of that. One example when a person would confide in a friend and share a piece of their life with them,you would think that person would listen whole heartedly to what they have to say and maybe even lend some words of wisdom or show some compassion.Well too often than not that other person will go right on to what is wrong with ‘their’ life and totally forget what you were saying. Not showing an ounce of compassion. This to me leads to me not trusting to confide in them anymore and it also takes a bit of your heart away. You trusted this person to talk to and all they did was go on and on about their life. Wow. It hurts and it can make it that much harder to trust and confide in another again. I get it, everyone is fighting their own battle in life but I believe that every person needs care and to be shown compassion. It doesn’t cost a dime. And you would be surprised how much a little would make someones day. I even mean when your a 4 way stop and there is a car across from you why not give wave to say hey go first. That little thing can make such a difference in someones day. My mother always told me it is the little things in life that go a long way. Try a little compassion today. Trust me you will feel good about and leave a positive mark in the world. Thanks for reading.
com·pas·sion
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noun
noun: compassion; plural noun: compassions
  1. sympathetic pity and concern for the sufferings or misfortunes of others.
    “the victims should be treated with compassion”
    synonyms: pity, sympathy, empathy, fellow feeling, care, concern, solicitude, sensitivity, warmth, love, tenderness, mercy, leniency, tolerance, kindness, humanity, charity

    “have you no compassion for a fellow human being?”